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Pills
Scribbled down on Sunday, 21 August 2005 10:41:06 AM |
Maybe tomorrow I can get hold of more and better pills. I am not sleeping, it's aggravating. I get headache, feel very irritated. I don't feel okay. Al. was in a dream. I think she was just a shadow in the dark I followed, sort of. I can't remember, as always. *yawns* I'm trying to wake up as I'm sleepy... maybe it's the bed, it's not comfortable to sleep in. Yesterday I took the chance hurriedly to download a few mp3's to depress myself. I will put them all down as I will be replacing them with a few new ones. My brother's girlfriend will leave today, apparently. She should. I am tired of hiding away from her. Having to see her or greet her, would make me feel crappy. I know I do crazy things being ant-social. Sometimes I do anything to not have to greet anyone I either meet outside or who come visiting us. I pretend I'm sick. She may probably think that I don't like her or that I'm bitchy. Whatever. Everyone thinks bad about me. Which is cool. It's better than thinking good, I'm 'no good'. ê = favorite song * = sent by a friend X = terrible song ? =mediocore
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