2001-09-24 Eq thinks I should stop cutting. RZ thinks I should stop smoking. I think I should stop eating. Oh, this is hilarious. I've had an uneventful weekend. Doing nothing but reading is my sort of fun. I like it. I like to dwell on something and completely lose myself into it. It's better than this life, anyway, even if I happen to read of apocalyptic scenes. Like Koontz's 'Fear Nothing'. I'm having an absurd conversation with Eq about meeting him. It's absurd because it scares me witless. I don't know why, really. I'm just no good with meeting people. And I'm no good with flying to UK to meet people I've never met before. And yet, it tempts me. It'd give me a chance to do something completely... outrageous. And perhaps it'd make me less willing to try to die if it worked out. Well, if I think of it sensibly, nothing can go wrong. There's nothing that could go wrong. Really. It'd be just meeting someone I've known forever anyway. I don't know. Ugh. I have more than enough of email to answer and I need to pick up some meds tomorrow. On top of this all, I'm on IRC. |
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