22.4.2000

"--- L. <ls@.ifi> wrote:
>
> : Hi,
> :
> : I've finally read everything that Coffee has on his page.
>
> Does it matter?

Dunno. I liked his page. Just thought I'd let you know.
>
> : I don't know what to say.
>
> Should you?

I'm just a bit...ah never mind. Why "crying"?
> : ...
> :
> : Would you like to go and see the Sleepy Hollow
> with me?
> :
> No. Sorry.

You sure have a way with words, my friend. *grin* I'm slightly curious to find out whether it's about the
Sleepy Hollow or about me... (probably me)But it's alright. I'll try and find someone else to go with.
>
> Anyway. I won't be around for a while (this week).
> Take care&stuff.

Well, I wish I could see you at some point on Easter holiday...I'll send you a message next week or
something. Have fun (wherever it is that you're going) :) Take care as well.
>
> -
> "It's a small world and it smells bad"
> - the Sisters
>
"The shortest distance between two points is through
hell." "

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"Ooh, what a hypocrite I am...
I'm so sorry about that stupid mail I sent you yesterday:( I was mean and I don't _want_ to be mean.

And I'm sorry I haven't mailed you for a long time. There's really no other excuse than me being lazy.
Duh. I hope P. has come back from his holiday and that he's not angry at you or anything:)

About Coffee...I don't know if you're interested, but if not, you may skip this, of course:)
First of all, thank you so much for the link:):) I really liked his page. Just that I'm a bit confused
now. You said "don't mail him, he won't be there to read it", so I presumed he was dead, but he didn't
_seem_ dead...or maybe I've just gone that normal and numb kind of person who's blind as a bat when it comes
to recognizing who's _really_ suicidal and who is not...
*melancholic sigh*
And, of course, it has been ages since he last updated.
You may call me an idiot if you think that I am one. I sure _feel_ like an idiot.

*another sigh* I just visited the office of Oppilastalo Oy and said that I'm moving out. Finally.
I've been meaning to do that for several months now. But still I'll be spending yet another month here.
I guess I'm starting to get used to the place since I have a feeling I'll miss this town. And I've been
talking to this Vietnamese girl who lives nearby. Think I've made a friend or something:) She's going
back to Vietnam next month, though, just as I'm going back to Lpr.

So how are you doing? What have you been up to? You're probably not there to read this, but...well, I would
love to see you next week. I haven't even called you for ages (some friend I am...)
So I guess I'll try and contact you.

Take care, and thank you for...whatever, everything:) For tolerating me, for being my friend, for existing,
for replying my mails although I behave like an idiot... You're wonderful:)

-A."

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I feel like kicking something. I'm tired of this shit.

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