2001-08-19 It's strange. I keep feeling sad for them. Because they seem to do everything wrong. It's like I knew it better, which I don't. I don't know why... but I loved the thought of them. And it's sad it's gone by now. Time to change. I always hated that. I had a wonderful day today. So wonderful it actually deserves to be mentioned. My sister was here with her boyfriend. I love them both. My sister's super-cool and clever and beautiful and wonderful. The only reason why I'm not at all jealous is because I know how hard she worked for it. It wasn't easy for her, it wasn't easy for us, but somehow she got through it, and won. She has a lot of things I'll never have, like an adorable boyfriend. But it doesn't matter. Because she deserves all of it. She has to. There are no clouds on the sky. The sun is setting and the stars will be there in a few minutes. And I'm waiting for them. | older aion spindrift e-mail my profile diaryland.com