2000-11-01 Because I am tired. I sat about half an hour in the lobby of the medical center. Then I got up and left. I didn't do anything because the place made me feel claustrophobic, and when I was there I couldn't figure out what I would say to anyone. There isn't anything they could do, really. At present it looks like I won't be back to university after today (as a student, at least). I'd like to say it was fun while it lasted but... well, it's such a relief to be able to think that I won't have to come back that I assume I can't. Some aspects of it have been allright. I wish I had any idea what I'm going to do next. For whatever reason it's hard for me to think that anything would work out like planned, and my plans are vague at least. I might be offline, I suppose. I might even be back to university. Ah, but I'd rather not think of that option. I've always disliked decisions that affect me in some way though. Let's see what I can get done this time (if anything). | older aion spindrift e-mail my profile diaryland.com