2001-04-29 Good day. I miss you, Tanja and Kristiina. And no, you won't read this, I know. I'm so used to missing people that it feels normal, if anything can ever be normal. I started going to this youth group thingie where we cook and paint and so on. It's really cool and I like the people there (two tutors plus one other girl). It gives me something to do on two days every week. It's better than staying at the hospital. No one's mentioned my release, but I hope it's going to be soon. I'm thinking of moving when I'll get out of there. In a way it's bad because I'll lose all the potential friends I've got (from hospital, mostly), but then, if I move to Helsinki I'll be closer to my family and at least one ex-girlfriend (perhaps not a wise move, but she's the only one I've been really talking to during the past few years). I should be getting an internet connection then. Hopefully I'll start updating more regularly soon anyway. I'm not insanely depressed anymore. I think so, at least. Even if I'm practically incapable of functioning properly, I'm not as down as I used to be. There are bad days, of course. And there are good days as well, which is really nice. Why haven't you written to me? | older aion spindrift e-mail my profile diaryland.com