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Hit
Scribbled down on Saturday, 1 October 2005 15:58:14 PM |
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I'm not going to post her entire email.. but I will quote a part which stroke me very hard. Like when someone hits you with a hammer. Or as she would quote Tori: 'Bobby's collecting bees. Hand hammers, he used one on me'. She used one on me. Good, I'm saddened she's in such bad shapes. I am... Let's forget it and see passed this as Al. would say, a failing attempt trying to convert me or change me. I'd be emotional over anything anyway. Another thing which shows why staying in touch with someone was wrong (for me). Her words had sharp sides and I experienced it as hurtful. And again and again and again. If I live 40 more years, I'd have to endure this day in and out. Words. Words. Always words. I hate words. Fuck words. I have no idea what she means as I could not read with my emotions getting in the way. So far I understood it, it was not nice. (I am refering to the bold part). I love to hear from you it makes my day but as i see i know we arent quite in perfect conditions to continue with our corresposndence the hand letters is part of an old art gettting extinct -T. I can't control the way I feel and afterwards it all seems so trivial. But it stays a fact I felt wounded. And maybe I misunderstood her, still her words did not call out the best feelings. |