Pills Scribbled down on Sunday, 21 August 2005 10:41:06 AM
Maybe tomorrow I can get hold of more and better pills. I am not sleeping, it's aggravating. I get headache, feel very irritated. I don't feel okay. Al. was in a dream. I think she was just a shadow in the dark I followed, sort of. I can't remember, as always. *yawns* I'm trying to wake up as I'm sleepy... maybe it's the bed, it's not comfortable to sleep in. Yesterday I took the chance hurriedly to download a few mp3's to depress myself. I will put them all down as I will be replacing them with a few new ones. My brother's girlfriend will leave today, apparently. She should. I am tired of hiding away from her. Having to see her or greet her, would make me feel crappy. I know I do crazy things being ant-social. Sometimes I do anything to not have to greet anyone I either meet outside or who come visiting us. I pretend I'm sick. She may probably think that I don't like her or that I'm bitchy. Whatever. Everyone thinks bad about me. Which is cool. It's better than thinking good, I'm 'no good'. ê = favorite song * = sent by a friend X = terrible song ? =mediocore Nirvana- Smells like teen spirit Nirvana- Lithium ê The police- Message in a bottle (deleted) The police- Murder by numbers (deleted) U2- With or without you U2- I still haven't found what I'm looking for (deleted) Celine Dion- Because you loved me (deleted) Pat Benatar- Love is a battlefield (deleted) R.E.M- Everybody hurts (deleted) Duran Duran- Ordinary world ê Seal- Kiss on a rose Sting- Desert rose (deleted) Madonna- Deeper and deeper Madonna- Bad girl Pantera- Are you there ê Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon ost- Farewell Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon ost- To the south X Coco Lee- A love before time ? Dido- Life for rent (deleted) Enya- Pilgrim ê Enya- Fallen embers (deleted) Roxette- It must've been love ê Sergio Mendes- Magalenha (deleted) Incubus- Nowhere fast ê Incubus- Megalomaniac ê Incubus- Wish you were here Incubus- Idiot box

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