Someone I can't stand Scribbled down on Saturday, 1 October 2005 16:56:01 PM
So, on each forum I visit there is very likely one of them I find a big bitch or an asshole. Usually that happens on forums that are very 'goth', 'down-to-earth' and now this has happened on a 'wicca' forum. New agers seem to be 'friendlier'. At least, I haven't met any I got to dislike, only one was weird when she told me about my past life, assuming my avatar was me but it was a singer. The free past life remembrance I got came close to movies such as the crucible and the consequences. It was gross of her to say. Fortunetellers in general do never tell anyone bad things they see/feel bluntly, like 'tomorrow you'll die' and more precisely, 'someone will slice your head off'. That's sick. They know it's not appropriate. You'd find them saying something as 'don't visit anyone tomorrow, stay home, play the guitar, it may save your life' instead. Be careful with words. These simple things can cause disasters. She was weird as she was saying it rather excitedly. So, I often go there to this famous wicca forum... It's the place too where L. contacted me from. I will be more specific. Seeing as many 'wiccans' focus on many topics as runes, paranormal gifts, tarots etc.. I think she (this witch I don't like, claims to be gifted) could feel some bad vibes from me (if I had them). I should. Or she knows how much I despise her. I think she does. Hell, she does. I will put you a few incidents that happened there. Firstly, I was told to fill in an interview 'so newbies could find out more about the old members'. I didn't have anything to do.. Anything that can keep me from boring myself or hurting myself or thinking bad about myself is good. So, I filled it in. I looked into that interview board and she asks questions to everyone whose interview got placed there. Isn't it weird that she didn't see mine? Or didn't want to see mine? Not that I'm an attention seeking fuck. I am simply pointing out that it's weird how I am the only one in that board without a reply from her. I do feel left out and it doesn't matter. I should feel honoured. And I am (lying to yourself is always so good). Somehow I'm dark. My mom has made me believe that too. I' know I'm not always as sweet as I sound. It shows... I have replied to very 'sensitive' subjects such as organ donation and suicide over there which resulted into heavy discussions since people want to convince each other ('Is letting a child die without getting a heart transplant tolerable, is it good to let it suffer?', they tried to play in on my emotions or 'Is it correct to leave families with tonnes of bills when one commits suicide?', they tried forcing guilt upon my conscious and so forth). Of course she's very against it. She calls it extremely selfish (refering to suicide). I have a bit of deja vu that tells me I gave certain comments she's didn't like too well. At least, I know we definitely do not share the same view. Who knows, maybe she has read my soul and knew what I was planning. I know these people could do that. Some could look into my eyes and tell me I wasn't 'okay'. Well, eyes don't lie, do they? It shows... I think she knew I was planning to delete all my posts (at least certain ones) so when I had written a message wondering why it says you can remove posts while that wasn't that case in all boards, she disabled the whole function completely. Grr. I hate her. I know I don't like her. She replied: 'You can't remove your posts' (while it used to be the case) like it was old news, making me out for some moron who didn't know what FAQ means, to read the thread where it says so. An ignorant member responded: 'Oh, then I must've missed something'. What angers me the most is the way she wrote it, with two annoying dancing icons as if she was making fun of me. Don't tell me I'm seeing things that aren't there like my mother. I know better. What can I do with my fingers? Nothing, can I?

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