Chadarara poems Scribbled down on Tuesday, 16 August 2005 2:12:47 AM
Chadarara isn't a word, I just made it up to express the low, F-leveled poetry I write. I only kept pride in a few dutch poems I have written. In poetry I would believe that sometimes I wasn't the one always writing. There were moments a poem was so perfect (a few of them) and flawless, I'd think someone whispered the words to my fingers, all the others are chaos. Je suis ça (glad I still remember a bit French). Okay, first poem written from last week. Untitled (called it Music, I have one named music already) I don't cut because I listen to music I listen to music because I cut because there's something wrong I hear that in each song It wonders with me It shows me possibilities It narrates histories It offers theories But you always have to walk alone No one can tell you what to do At the end there's just me Definitely not you Comments: I am always mad, I use that energy to write, as long as that madness isn't sadness. My brother is telling me to this date that hardcore music (I listen to) drove me to cut, but it's otherwise. 'Hardcore' music found me. I was crappy and it consoled me. Therefor I listen to music because I cut. Because of shitty feelings, I sought dark things to soothe me. The first 'dark' group I found was Linkin Park (In The End). Later Red Hot Chili Peppers, I love this band a lot. I'm a little Johnny Groupie. Or John's Groupie, if he'd ever have one. Nah, my obsession with a few celebrities is that they remind me of my sweet love that could be wandering lost around in these cold spheres.

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