yesterday night it was cold outside, but too warm inside the house to close the windows.  i went to sleep leaving the windows open.  it got so cold around 2 am that i woke up and had to close the windows.  i hate leaving the windows open at night because this always happens.  also, if there's a strong wind, it will rattle my bedroom door, which is very annoying and prone to waking me from slumber.  when i went to close the windows, i looked outside.  i saw dark blobs past my house in the street.  i wonder what they were; cats, wolves, people?  maybe they were hallucinations from my dialating pupils as they adjusted to the light.  who knows.  after i closed the windows, i went to bed, and thought nothing more of what was outside.
today, i was replaying castlevania: symphony of the night again, because i have nothing else better to do.  at one point in one level, the protagonist roams through a dungeon, and as he passes by these large cells with bars (jail cells) zombies slowly approach, grab onto the bars, and shake lightly.  i'm not sure if pathos was intended for these creatures, but i felt like bawling when i saw them again.  they walked so slowly, rattled those bars ever so lightly, almost like they had lost all hope.  i wanted to free them, i want to free them.  i don't care if they would try to eat the protagonist or something, that would not be a problem hard to fix.  but they don't deserve to be in a cell for eternity, with no hope.  i think maybe i'm getting too sentimental over pixelated characters (minor ones at that) involved in a video game that came out three years ago.  then again, i have nothing else to get sentimental about.
i still want to meet that girl.  maybe in the future.
"your brains went black when she took back her love, and she put it out into the sun.  call her name, she looks the same as you, question marks streched across her skin.  she dangles carrots, makes you feel embarassed, to be the fool you know you are."