There's this girl who I see at least three times a week coming home from work.  I know that I have seen her many times before.  She goes to the church that I go to in order to appease my parents (church is also a good place to go to think, i've found).  She's friends with some loosely associated friends of mine.  She took the placement tests for UIUC the same day as me, and I stood next to her because she was 'hanging out' with those loosely associated friends that I was also hanging out with.  She came in Crown Books when I was working there a few times.  Whenever I went to visit Tim at FAR, I'd sometimes see her waiting for a bus or going to the girls' wing of the building.  She has longish dark colored hair and is attractive, at least to me.  It's odd, I haven't had a crush like this in some time, probably close to a year.  I wonder if all these odd physical visions of her are some sort of 'sign.'  Then again, I can't really say I believe in signs, because when I do, they never mean anything.  So I gave up on them along time ago...I'd like to meet her though, just to find out if I really do like her.  I never will though.  "And that's the way it is." I think my ideal girl would be one who is somewhat aggressive, that quality, on top of everything else, is a bit  necessary or else we'd never do anything because I don't like to act or make decisions involving anyone more than myself.  If you've ever seen Tenchi, Ryoko is probably as close to my ideal girl personality as can be.  Affectionate, fun, adventurous, like to be around me, and have a hint of danger to keep things exciting.  Also, being in interested in the electronic/IDM circuit and mopey indie scene would have benefits in terms of conversation and the like.  Oh well.  Maybe I'll have a dream like I did on 01/26/00 and I'll have be reminisciently melancholic from having to awaken from such a wonderful dream, and just from hoping that it would be reality.  oh well.  sigh.