today is the most beautiful day outside.  it is raining a little bit, but not enough to get you very wet at all.  the sun is out, but there are enough clouds to cover it up partially so it is overcast, but still bright, with gray streaks of sunshine sawing through the sky.  there are blackbirds flying in archaic figure eight patterns in the sky, while i'm looking at the steeple from some cathedral in the distance, and it reminds me of a scene from an anime i saw at some point in time.  i think i've found out what causes my depression, it seems very simple, really when i think about it.  it is merely because i am bored with life which leads to those feelings.  it explains so much, why i get at least four new music albums each week, why being some sort of odd creature or flying around in space appeals to me momentarily, and so on.  all those things which could momentarily make life exciting again are out of reach.  i'm starting to get bored of music, oddly enough.  i think i've over saturated myself with it, i have too much, but i don't want to get rid of any of it, because most of it is good, but just not that much really moves me, not to the degree it once did.  nothing really moves me much anymore.  at least i know the problems now.  the new question is how do i overcome these problems.