this morning, i was able to come back early since there was no physics lab.  on the way back to my room, i saw all three girls i had crushes on this semester so far.  it was kind of odd...one walked past me on a way to her class i presume, another one was sitting outside, and i got stuck on the elevator with the third.  crushes are kind of         annoying and i'm glad that i don't get into them very much anymore.  i used to have really long crushes <two years> back in grade school and early high school.  but it seems as i get older, i care less and less about meeting that 'special someone'...i don't think there's a 'perfect girl' somewhere in the world for me.  that's some random housewife tale that gets told to their sons sometime or another.  no girl will ever really understand my actions or my motivations.  i don't even know what they are all the time...and i don't think i'll ever find a girl who was/is into what i enjoy.  i think that's the only way they wouldn't find me incredibly boring when talking to me, sadly.  oh well.  i like being alone quite a bit.  no one really understands one another, if you think about it.  i don't really understand any of my few friends' motivations.  sometimes i can relate, but not always...usually it ends in me trying to get them to explain the situation and what they make of it, so at least i know what they're thinking, but usually i'm horrible at detecting emotions.